Reality the Great Illusion

 

 

“RECLAIM YOUR POWER”

…..From Past Relationships and Incidents!

 

Leotha Douglas

Shamanic Practitioner and Intuitive Consultant

February 7, 2008

 

Over the last several years it occurred to me, while speaking with women friends and associates, how energy exchange between individuals can affect many aspects of our daily lives.

 

More than twenty years ago, I worked the day-shift in a county jail as a Sheriff Deputy, assigned to the medical module where inmates with mental health issues were housed. About one year later I came back from a two week vacation and was immediately confronted by the Family Nurse Practitioner and the Supervising Registered Nurse at the jail. They asked me if I would let them know when I scheduled another vacation. Well, I was very confused! I said, “Sure I will, but why do you want to know?”  The Family Nurse Practitioner said, “Because we want to schedule our vacation during the time you are off”. Still not getting it, I said, “What do I have to do with when you decide to take vacation?”

 

Well, they explained to me how the stress level is much lower when I am on-duty. The inmates with mental health issues are much calmer when I am there.  I heard compliments from medical, mental health and my supervisors about the difference I made in making their jobs easier, but, I really didn’t know what they were talking about. But, then again, I always worked alone; therefore, I never got to see how other Deputies communicated with inmates, I heard various stories and knew some of my peers whom I did not like being in their presence.

 

Several years later, as a Drug and Violence Prevention Specialist, I was perplexed by a female parent’s statement to several other parents during a school event. During a casual conversation, this parent said, “I don’t know what it is, but no matter how down I feel, all I need is ten minutes in Officer Douglas’ presence and I am feeling energized”.

 

As I recall, this parent just walked away, with the rest of us, especially me, wondering, “What did she mean by that?”   

 

It would be many years later that I learned how one’s presence (energy) may create a sense of peace, anxiety, confusion, anger, fear, guilt, etc. in another person.

 

During the late 1990’s I began to study “energy” and how it is transferred between individuals. One of my first ventures was to “clear” all my well meaning family’s (mom, dad, grand parents, etc.) energy from my body.

 

Several years ago I was in a group meeting when my body suddenly began to feel agitated as one of the participants (I will call her Shirley) began making suggestions to me about a question I had.  The more Shirley spoke the more agitated I got, even when she was addressing someone else. 

 

Now, I had known Shirley for about a year and knew her to be very compassionate, though provoking and a wonderful listener. I began to make myself wrong for feeling like I did not want to be in the same room with Shirley.

 

After the meeting I began to process my did-ease when I hear Shirley speak. I called a friend and discussed it, but no conclusion was made.

 

The next day while meditating on my dilemma with Shirley, it dawned on me, “Shirley’s energy was the same as my mother’s!” I asked myself, “What was I to learn from this revelation?”

 

The first thing they popped into my mind was, “Since I had forgiven my mom for whatever I had done to hurt or offend her and asked her to forgive me “soul to soul” (my mom was in advance stage of Alzheimer’s disease at the time). I had forgiven myself for feeling anger, guilt, sadness, frustration, shame, etc. for judging my mother.”

 

So, I thought, “What else am I missing regarding the energy of my mother coming up for me when I am in the presence of Shirley?”

 

I knew the importance of why we attract people into our lives, to mirror the things we don’t like about ourselves. Since we are programmed with our family’s well meaning beliefs and community norms at an early age, I wondered what pattern(s) I was still repeating.

 

I was well aware of the terms: “What I fear, I will attract. What I run from, I run into. If I continue to do what I have always done, I will continue to get what I have always gotten”.

 

Suddenly, a “light bulb went on” in my mind! I realized I was still in judgment of my mother!

 

I had learned how energy within my body reacts when I am in a place of love/neutrality and non-judgment (“Personal Power”), versus being in a place of fear (control, judgment, resentment, anger, guilt – “No Personal Power”).

 

I now realized the gift Shirley provided me by mirroring my mother’s energy! I was in gratitude for Shirley’s energy vibration reminding me that I was still living in the perception that all I had to do was practice moving others energy out of my body/space and I would be done with it. This experience with Shirley was just another reminder for me to always notice what “place” I am being in when anxiety energy began stirring inside me. Once I breathe into my heart and acknowledge, without judgment, the feeling that comes up and then send love energy to that place, the dis-ease subsides.

 

Though Shirley soon after moved from the area, I have not met anyone who has caused me to feel my mother’s energy come up within me since.

 

What I have noticed is the number of conversations I have had with women about how hard it is to stay in their “Personal Power” when they are in the presence of a domineering family member, ex-mate, friends that are addicted to drama, someone in authority, etc. These women mostly speak about feeling hopeless during their conversation or energetically drained after a conversation, whether in person or by phone.

 

I feel one major lesson these situations provide anyone is the opportunity to “Reclaim Your Power” by:

·         Resetting boundaries

·         Re-learning to stand in your “Personal Power” by stating what is so for you and how you feel about it

·         Requesting your needs be met….YES, putting yourself first! When you were a child you demanded your needs be met, until someone verbally, physically or energetically stopped you

·         Trusting your intuition

·         Taking time to be alone to give your energetic body and especially your heart, time to heal

 

Understand this shift in perception will cause your body to go into anxiety, but remember, we get to choose. We can choose to continue to do what we are accustom to, even though, deep down we know we deserve better. Or, we can choose to do whatever it takes to shift out of our feeling of powerlessness and energy-draining way of life.

 

Obviously, if one does choose to change what’s going on in their personal life, they need time. The ego mind will run many stories about why you should not change. Since our energetic body learns to accept as “normal” the issues that are playing out at this time, we must allow ourselves to be vulnerable by asking for assistance. Once we decide to change what’s going on in our life, the Natural Laws of the Universe began to support us.

 

As the saying goes, “We must shut the door behind us in order to allow the next door to open for us”. Another way of saying that is, “Once you decide to change/shift what’s going on with your life, people will show up to assist you. Yes, some people will disappear from your life, but you will attract others into your life to mirror more opportunities for you to expand even further.

 

I choose to look at relationships as “energetic contracts”. “Energetic contracts” provide personal growth opportunities through experiences (loving or painful) to learn from and grow. Once you feel the relationship no longer serves you or the other person, express your gratitude to the individual and move on. It’s your right to decide when the “energetic contract” is complete.

 

None of this happens overnight……remember, for years you have been absorbing the energy of well meaning family members and not-so-well meaning, spouse/mate(s), friends, associates, bosses, etc. With assistance/coaching, one can “Reclaim Their Personal Power”.

 

 

Leotha Douglas

Shamanic Practitioner and Intuitive Consultant

Email: dd4dfy@pacbell.net